Reluctant but happy...

So, I didn't want to lose him forever.  He had just helped me through a couple of the hardest weeks in my life, we obviously both missed each other a lot, and I had hoped eventually to get back together with him.  It was hard for any guy to compete with my memory of J.  So I agreed to not see anyone else.  However, I would continue on the dating sites because my parents like to spy on me.  I've learned this from experiences in the past.  When J and I first got together and I took my profiles down - my Dad noticed the first day!  Safe to say, my boundaries with them are horribly over run.  So, I would fake it...and it turns out that I've only seen 2 guys I would have been interested in anyway - the pickings are slim out there!!  The one guy just stopped e-mailing me suddenly too.  This was also because since my parents were just beginning to be stable again, I didn't want to drop this "bomb" on them.  Then they scheduled the family vacation for May for 9 days to Florida.....there was no way I was going to possibly ruin that with this news.  So, we returned from that vacation about a week ago now.  All I'm waiting for is for us to finish my landscaping in my backyard (already in motion) before I tell them.  Hopefully this weekend, so I can tell them next weekend.....not too close to Dad's 60th on June 18th.  At the same time - obviously I am not looking forward to this....so am silently rooting for bad weather so I can put it off longer.  I know - not healthy.

So, we've been seeing each other about once a week and it has been wonderful having J back in my life.  we've had some serious conversations about the future.  He also agreed to read "Rome Sweet Home" by Scott Hahn which I read a handbook on being Lutheran.  We've had short conversations about it each week I'd say.  Also, about mid-April he read a chapter that dealt with papal infallibility and actually did more research on the subject.  We talked about it on and off for a few days.  He thought that it was a good thing we had this belief and didn't have any concrete arguments with it, he just couldn't accept it yet.  He thought perhaps because he didn't grow up with it.  Basically the same way he feels about purgatory.